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Reflections on Today
 
     Had some wonderful news today. My oldest son, Caleb, is in his freshman year at King College. He was given the opportunity to attend this college because of his wrestling accomplishments and was offered a scholarship.
 
     Upon entering his freshman year, he was faced with a number of difficult situations. The academic load proved to be a heavy one and the standards for King College are higher than most other colleges. The academic load coupled with the wrestling regimen was almost more than he could bear. He did manage A's in his first semester but the cutting weight, work outs in the middle of the night, drives across country with the team and practices every day, tested Caleb's very core.
 
     Anyone who knows Caleb, is impressed and enamoured with his character. (I realize that I am the mom... but it's true!) A Christian in heart, mind and spirit, no one doubted where Caleb stood on his beliefs. He lived his life to honor God and through high school and his first year at college he never faltered.
 
     Somewhere in the middle of the season, Caleb decided that he didn't want to wrestle anymore. He struggled through the season, knowing that soon he would have to tell everyone that had been counting on him, the decision he had made. He wanted to know what it was like to just be a student. He wanted to focus on his academics without the added worry of wrestling. But he wondered what it was going to be like to be on the other side of the mat. He worried that if he didn't wrestle all four years in college that he would never get the coaching position he hoped for once he graduated. And he wanted to go out big.
 
     All these doubts and worries and every day he plugged on, cutting weight, training just as he was coached to do. determined to follow through to the end and give his best even though deep down he wanted to be finished, he wanted this nightmare to end.
 
     Caleb DID follow through, he made it to Nationals, among the elite. Once at Nationals, Caleb lost two matches and was out of the tournament. He beat himself up for not winning like he thought he should have... he was tired and beaten and for the first time since fifth grade, he found himself on the other side of the mat. He USED to be a good wrestler, instead of BEING a good wrestler.
 
     While still at the National Tournament, the coaches were voting on the one wrestler to win the Champion of Character award... at the end of the tournament, Caleb's name was called as the Champion of Character. An outstanding award, to say the least, but among the doubts and fears swarming Caleb's mind, he barely had time to notice what others had known all along. That Caleb WAS a winner, he excelled where others could not.
 
     Caleb came back to King College to finish out the semester... he got a part time job in Johnson City and was well on his way to moving forward... Today, we are in the middle of the last semester of Caleb's freshman year and he is working hard at his goal to be a teacher and a coach. Hoping that his decision was the right one... hoping that it won't be too hard to stand at his brother's wrestling matches and know that he is no longer part of the competition.
 
     But today there was an answer to prayer, evidence that God knew all along what the plan for Caleb was...and evidence that His hand is in our lives every day.
 
     Coach Brimer, Head Coach at Greeneville High School, is retiring this year. His youngest son graduates in May and Coach Brimer will be leaving with him. Coach Brimer had Caleb as a wrestler for six years and had ample time to witness the type of young man he has become. With Coach Brimer leaving, Coach Shelton, the current Assistant Coach, will be moving up to the Head Coaching position. 
 
     This morning Caleb got a call from Coach Shelton. Caleb was offered the position of Assistant Coach at Greeneville High School. A paid position, doing what Caleb loves to do. Coach Shelton said that he and Coach Brimer had been discussing the Assistant Coach position and that he knew that there was no on else in this world that he would want MORE as an Assistant Coach than Caleb Myers......... And the icing on the cake is that Justin, Caleb's brother, will be a senior next year and Cody, Caleb's other brother will be a freshman... and Caleb will be coaching them.
 
     The only thing I could say to Caleb that showed him where my pride lay was this: "It was your character that got you here, not your ability in wrestling. And all of the work and the follow through, WAS realized, seen and honored... Congratulations, son. I am so proud of you"
 
     I love you - Mom


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Been a While...
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Been a while since I have written... I don't know why I do this... I go for months at a time where I am so busy I can't focus enough to write anything, then I have months at a time where I am prolific and remember the healing properties involved in my writing just about everything.

 

I am now in school full time at ETSU... and working full time... hoping that I can graduate before my son does. I have done this a thousand times, it seems... going to school until I can't afford it anymore, stopping and working in order to boost my checking account, then go back to school and by the end of the semester, scraping to make ends meet... but I want it so bad.... I want to graduate so bad I can taste it.... eventually, it'll happen.... hopefully before all of my kids have made it through college... but if not, it's ok... I do what I have to do and take it one day at a time... 3 semesters left... I wonder how long it will take me to get through 3 more semesters... 

 

Lately I have felt like Sally, in the Peanuts cartoon... sitting behind her little booth with the sign that reads: "The Psychologist is IN".... I want someone to turn my sign around.... the doctor is NOT IN.... (Does it say doctor or does it say Psychologist?) Anyway, I seem to be a magnet lately for everyone else to dump on... and I should not have used such a negative descriptive word , I guess... "dump on" sounds as if I am not flattered that some would seek me out for counsel... I am flattered that others would trust me with their "Innermost, whatevers" and I'll admit, I am good at it...I have a way of looking at all angles and am never afraid to play the devil's advocate in most situations and can point out views that the worried, angry, concerned etc.. may have missed in the heat of the moment...however, I suppose what that descriptive word DOES do is it describes how overwhelmed I have been lately with the responsibility of others worries, concerns, problems, etc....

I am tired and I am busy and I tell no one, I have a difficult time saying "no" when matters of the heart are concerned and lately it seems everything is a matter of the heart...

 

Well, I have to head out for a while and I suppose later, I may jump back on here and finish my thoughts for today.... - Dawn -

  

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It's My Birthday!
... I love my birthday! I love doing nothing on my birthday... of course, right now I am procrastinating... my farrier is coming and I should be out there catching horses... instead I am sitting in here... BUT... it's my birthday and I can procrastinate if I want to... right?
 
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Caleb is home from college!!

     Caleb began his Fall break today... he got home earlier than expected and I squealed like a little girl when I saw him... the brothers are glad he is home and they will be spending time at their dad's house tonight... I will visit with the boys and Caleb on Sunday... I have to work tomorrow... that bites...I want to be playing with the boys!!... but he will be in town until Tuesday... I LOVE MY KIDS!!

 

     I have become obsessed with flossing my teeth... I think it's becoming a problem... I know flossing is a good thing but I am beginning to worry about the relationship between myself and the dental floss... I have to have it... if I can't find it...I get a little antsy.... when I am online cruising around, reading, I am also flossing my teeth... after I eat, I have to floss my teeth... I have been caught flossing my teeth at work... I think I have a new addiction...

 

     Maybe I will quit smoking and floss my teeth instead... it is certainly a cleaner habit... though I can't say it is any more attractive than smoking.... well, here's to hoping...

 
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Hay

I am worried about HAY... I am dreaming about it... talking about it... looking for it... absolutely stressing about it... I am not a worry kind of person... I don't worry about it until it happens... then I come up with a plan.. but I am here and now admitting that I am worried about hay...

 

We haven't had enough rain... my pond is completely dried up... and it's a big one!... consequently, the hay production here is HALF of what it was last year... the farmers that usually sell their hay only have enough this year for their own livestock... where I got a round bale LAST year for $15 each, they are now running between $35 and $60... EACH!!!

 

I have no grass left on any of the pastures... I am telling people if they have to still cut their lawns to please bag it up and bring it to me... this is how desperate I am...

 

Most frustrating of it all is that I have 164 acres in Texas... FULL of hay... not  even the first cutting this year... and it's just sitting there and I have no way to make it work for me.... I have thought of putting an add out in the paper out there that for a price, if they cut and bale it, they can have it... then use the money to buy hay for my horses, HERE... but that only solves HALF the problem... the other half is FINDING some for sale...

 

This winter will be a tough one for my horses...  they wiill be stressed and skinny... I think I am going to feed them broccoli... it's cheaper...

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